Week 35

Ladies and gentlemen, my due date is approaching in five weeks! I know it sounds cliché, and surely the pregnant brain smudges all time and space, but the past 35 weeks have seriously flown by. Tomorrow is my last day at the office. Starting next week I will work for a new boss! People ask if I'm excited to be off for a year. My honest answer is, not really. Work is familiar and I know what to expect. Raising a baby on the other hand, is so uncharted that I don't even know where to buy the map to gauge if I'm lost or not. I'm excited to meet the baby but I'm not really excited to leave my cubicle. Something's wrong here... I really hope the baby won't be here too early. All we have is the car seat and that's about it. We do have lots of baby clothes but everything needs to go through the wash and 99% of the shopping list still needs to be checked off. It's not that I wasn't excited to do all that before, but I put other things in priority and I assumed that first time babies are always late. But by her super low position, I'm not so sure about that theory anymore. So here's hoping that little bean is happy in the womb and doesn't want to meet the world TOO ahead of schedule. Some random things are on my mind these days. Birth Announcements - if I'm going to send out an e-mail immediately, isn't it redundant to mail paper ones? Is it oversharing and wasteful? Oh but a properly printed design on a nice thick piece of paper, haha, I love paper yes I do! Nursing Gear - Do I HAVE to buy nursing tops? They're so crazy expensive. What about bottles? Pumps? And what if breastfeeding doesn't work for us? My mother in law is a lactation consultant, so yeah, no pressure there. Her Name Shall Be? - We haven't narrowed down the names list yet. How do people even begin to choose a name? This is not a fun exercise for people who have a hard time making decisions. The Birth - Well I guess this is not a random thought, but I definitely go through extreme thoughts of "Yeah it's going to be awesome, we'll finally meet her, I can't wait to do this!" to a complete melt down where I imagine everyone in the room snickering at my pain-pansy self and me being trapped in perpetual labour. Well, until further notice, I will continue to enjoy all of the baby's movements and our time together. I really love that she's my special buddy and I'm so privileged to carry this unique personality inside my belly.